And a wild killer bunny returns!!! *major cheering from the crowd*
Any who heres whats been up with me. Since I lost my beloved Nubbins I pretty much told the Goddess and God to fuck off. I finally started to come around and working on the God aspect and things in my life went down the shitter so I'm not talking to God again. However, I am talking to the Goddess which she doesn't really like it when I talk to God anyways.
I have been slacking as I always seem to be doing with my worship and haven't done ritual in forever. Last night I finally drug my lazy but back to my closet, yes my alter is in my walk in closet, and did a ritual. IT FELT AMAZING. I wouldn't say that it was better than having great sex but it was at least as good as having good sex. I always forget how powerful I can be when I want until I actually put effort into a ritual or spell work. Anytime I put I lot into spell work it works out just how I asked and often times I get a better than hoped for result. Granted I am damn careful how I ask for things and I don't expect the Goddess to just give me what ever I ask for. I ask her to give me a way to make it happen for myself. Last night I asked her to help take away certain things that I have allowed myself to cling to- people, thoughts and relationships that haven't been healthy for me. Already today I am feeling better and they are no longer bothering me the way did yesterday. Which isn't to say I'm numb or don't care but I am no longer rule or paralyzed by it.
Also, I love this time of year. I think that it is the most powerful for me. I attended a ritual last year at Halloween that my friends did and I can still feel the reverberation from it today. The things I gave to the God and Goddess last year and still gone and no longer haunt me. I don't know why I always seem to let myself get away from doing rituals and practicing daily. I always do so much better mentally when I do. So heres to making myself worship regularly and making myself blog again.
